I've been looking for ways to get more comfortable with the ebb and flow of a creative life. Transitions are not fun for me. They are full of panic and fear - and dealing with those feelings only makes it harder to get in the flow of the next project. Once I'm in the flow, I'm great.
It's transition time right now and here I am getting these great posts and vids all about using sketchbooks, which I don't use the way these guys do at all. [I have sketchbooks that I use for thumbnails, scribbles, notes, really awful attempts at drawing things. They are nothing to be proud of and I am not exaggerating or being modest. They are crap.] As I listened, I kept hearing the term 'creative practice'.
After a few days, I realized that I don't 'really have a creative practice. I have a creative business.
I have a business practice.
I have a busy-ness practice.
No creative practice.
Huh. I want to change that.
So, during the very next video, which was the one by Val Webb, I got out one of my crap sketchbooks, my favorite mechanical pencil with an eraser that never stops and a really awesome carbon ink pen [by Jane Davenport that was a gift from my awesome mom] and decided to play along.
Val Webb is a superb teacher. Kind, patient and gentle. Before I knew it, I had a heron sketched out in pencil, then over that in permanent ink. And then I added all the background stuff and water in ink, spontaneously with no pencil first. It may not sound like much, but committing a drawing on paper in ink is a big deal for me.
If I'm going to be really honest, I'm considering doing more of this kind of sketching in a real sketchbook devoted to this kind of work...but only because this one turned out ok. I have discovered that I'm that person who only considers doing more of something if she can do it reasonably well out of the box. I don't like to be bad at things and certainly never in public.
That part of myself is governed by fear and I'm not very happy with that so I'll be thinking about this a lot more. But hopefully, I'll be doing a lot more of these nature/bird sketches. I actually ordered a sketchbook for it. I'm going to work these into some sort of real 'creative practice.'
I'll keep you posted.
